defying the tyranny of precedence

fifty-sixth time is a charm?

2009-05-13T10:15:00.000-07:00

I know I have resolved and resolved to keep this silly thing updated, but it hasn't happened yet. Once again, I am resolving to make this work. Tonight is the LOST finale and I could NOT be more excited. I have faithfully stayed away from all spoilers all season. I can't believe it is finally here.

Also...Work is going really well. I feel like I am gaining knowledge every shift. Sometimes I have to seek it out for myself, but that's what its all about, right? I've also gained some fantastic friendships up at work. I wouldn't trade those for the world.

As the year anniversary comes up of "the week my world turned upside down," as it has come to be known (AKA dog loses eye, called the wedding off, graduated, moved back home ALL IN SEVEN DAYS), I think back on where I was a year ago, and how far I have come. I am so thankful to God for the people he has put in my life EXACTLY when I needed them. AND the people that he removed from my life, or at least my view, when I needed that. I have seen every encounter since that week as purposeful and God-breathed. It has been amazing to see him work in powerful ways.

PLEASE keep me accountable to blogging. If you read, then say to me..."Hey Paige, you haven't blogged since the O.J. trial...maybe its time you updated?"

I would really appreciate it. :)

Oh yeah...and this guy is coming back this week. It should get interesting!!!

two in a row!

2009-01-27T23:10:00.000-08:00

Woooow... you should all be impressed.

I have discovered that when my life is a mess, my house is as well. I never really realized the correlation between the two until I got into college. When I was at my lowest was when my laundry pile was at its highest. These past few weeks have been pretty rough, and I'm really not even sure why. Gradually, my room kept getting more and more untidy, and my life followed suit...or vice versa. Last night I went on a cleaning spree that lead to a bit of catharsis. Every piece of trash I picked up was like a part of my life that I was now in control of. I cleaned for close to six hours, and finally, my house is (for the most part) back in order...and for some reason, I'm at peace with the fact that my life is as well. When I finally fell asleep at about 4:30, I had a terrible dream...there were people coming through and TRASHING my house. Now...had I not already known the correlation between my life and my tidyness, I probably would have just said, "Wow, that was a wierd dream." I think, however, that it was a little symbolic of how my life takes this turn sometimes. Perhaps I allow people or things into my "house" that I know are going to TRASH it. When I kick those people/things out, I have time to get things back in order. I took that dream as a warning...when your house is its cleanest, is when Satan and temptation will try their hardest to TRASH it. So...here's to clean rooms and cleaner consciences.

**Reader's note: please ignore the multiple comma splices and superfluous use of ellipsis in the above post. You get my point, right?**

I'll be brief

2009-01-26T09:02:00.000-08:00

I'll be brief, because I really don't care to rehash my apology for
not blogging more faithfully. I just want everyone (all three of you?)
to know that I am resolving, allbeit a little late for New Year's, to
be pacified by the fact that God is enough. Little snippets of my past
have been rearing their ugly head and showing me how far I had come.
Last night I perused my old xanga blog and I was pretty mortified by
some of the things I said and the toxicity of the relationships I was
in...oh yeah...and the sheer NUMBER of them. Anyway...moral of the
story is I have come WAY too far to fall back into what I had been.
I'll be updating you on how this process is coming ;)
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the holidays

2008-12-10T23:45:00.001-08:00

are upon us. in every way possible. its so unreal. and every year we say "man, i can't believe it is ALREADY christmas." to me...its just a signifier of how quickly time has been flying. ever since i graduated in may i feel kinda fast-forward-y. i know i have expressed this numerous times, in a billion different ways. :). i can not tell any of you how thankful i am for the new friends i am making every day and for the friendships i have maintained. all my blogs sound dangerously similar lately... i don't know if thats because i am in a rut or because i am just settled.

my faith has been rocked a bit lately. not my faith in Christ, but my faith in Christians. i feel an overwhelming detachment to the Christian church and how they have bastardized the gospel to their own fancies. There are NUMEROUS issues that continue to come up that make me ashamed to align myself with the majority of the religious right. Being a Christ follower, it has been hard for me to find a group of Christians that lack the pious, overbearing nature that is prevalent in today's mainstream evangelical churches. I feel strongly that I have now found that group. Now...all that is NOT AT ALL to say that my past church groups have not given me exactly what I needed in the moment that I needed it, spiritually speaking...so i better not get any hate comments from this :) . I just feel very strongly that God has hand plucked me and thrown me full force into Northwood church as the place that I belong. I desperately challenge anyone who is a Christ follower that reads this to never stop learning, never stop questioning, and never stop sharing. Also, don't allow yourself to fall into complacency that is SO easy for us, as Christians, to do.

stupid lamb.

2008-11-24T19:24:00.000-08:00

Finally made it to go see Twilight last night. It was amazing, as expected. I'm glad that I didn't read the book before it came out, because now when i read the book, it will be like icing on the "movie" cake. Oh...and by the way...I'm going with Heather to see it again.

I am in a stage of musical enlightenment, of sorts, in which I am opening my ears to all kinds of new stuff. If you guys have anything that is musically off the wall...try me out :)

Things seem to have been changing a lot lately. It seems to be for the better, but its a pretty whirlwind way to live. i would love to just stand still for a bit...and maybe its coming soon. Until then, i guess i'll just enjoy the windblown hair and lack of sleep.

Since I have been faced with some of the same questions ALOT lately here are some things you should know, so you don't ask me:
1. yes, i'm over it. I've BEEN over it.
2. No, I don't wish it had ended differently. It ended right when it needed to, and how it needed to.
3. Yes, I have moved churches...and while I miss the people at my old church home TERRIBLY, I am LOVING my new one.
4. I AM going back to school . and YES I did just get out. I don't think a furthering of my education is anything to be scoffed at.
5. Yes, I do want to get married and have kids...and believe me, I am not PURPOSEFULLY putting that off.

I know that last portion of the blog was a little snippy :) So I'll end on a good note.

I have never been so thankful for all the people in my life. Even though my life has been a crazy tornado, my friends and family have been in the storm with me. Thanks you guys :)

ok, i'm an unfaithful blogger...so kill me.

2008-11-22T23:30:00.000-08:00

I have decided to write this blog with only my facebook statuses from the past month, so you'll know what I've been doing. It just seemed easier than trying to explain it. :)

*October 26*
Paige...
doesn't want to be your secret
may have accidentally enjoyed high school musical 3
is a hopeless case, in a good way:)
is getting punkin pancakes in the AY EM

*October 27*
Paige...
is trying so hard to keep her cool
is listed as in a relationship and it's complicated

*October 28*
Paige...
can't sleep but is thankful for honest friends and brake lights.
is up before 5 pm. Everyone should be very proud. Ah, night shift
has one more month until she's off her internship
is being molded into a patient, godfearing, open-minded woman...slowly but surely

*October 29*
Paige...
is somehow everythings gonna fall right into place. If we only had a way to make it all fall faster every day.
is going shopping to mourn her last day of vacation.

*October 30*
Paige...
is God's timing is flawless, his will secure, his grace unending, and his love is pure.
is an Obama supporter, is a God-fearing Christian, and don't you DARE tell me I can't be both

*October 31*
Paige...
voted, and yes it DID count.

*November 2*
Paige...
is if yo mama gave it to you baby girl let it show. thank you, huey, for your lyrical genius and subtlety
is say what you need to say

*November 3*
hopes to sit away in a secret place, the shadow of your wings. I think of you, and my heart breaks open.
is stoked.
just took a practice GRE. yeesh.

*November 4*
Paige...
is anxiously awaiting with bated breath, with hope for our country...but scared to death.
is not only donating her status, but also her American right to vote, to Barack Obama.
is excited that so many people turned out to vote. I am thankful to all of you who shared your opinions, and specifically that YOU HAVE ONE!!! USA!!!
will sleep soundly tonight, not because of who was elected President, but because God's will is supreme, and our country and its fate are in his almighty hands.

*November 5*
Paige...
is asking everyone to visit http://www.marchofdimes.com/padpetition/index.aspx?a=1&z=1&c=1&l=en and sign the petition for preemies.
going to "young at heart" choir. Gotta love those purpled-hair sopranos. I love old people :)
if you have something to say...say it to me now.
is I don't know you, but I want you all the more for that.

*November 6*
Paige...
is oh. em. gee. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Jxs6RwbVe0
wishes she had a twin that she could send into work for her tonight...but not an evil one.
is JAMMING OUT to some swell season.

*November 7*
Paige...
is down for the count, man.

*November 8*
Paige...
is stuffing her face with a potato bagel, and proceeding into a carb-induced slumber. Goodnight ;).
is so over it.

*November 9*
Paige...
is going to church. So stoked.
is putting on her comfiest sleep shirt and slipping into a deep slumber. If you're trying to get a hold of me, give up now. :)
is haikus are easy | but sometimes they don't make sense | refrigerator

*November 10*
Paige...
just slept for 19 hours to recover from 3 days of working.
fixed her running toilet...ALL by herself. What a woman.

*November 11*
Paige...
is hungry, but Mom's touch lamps turn on when I use the microwave. So...starve it is.
is snotty-nosed. Just thought you should know.
won't hesitate no more, no more. It can not wait...

*November 12*
Paige...
is up way too early for having gone to bed so late.
Joy is not the absence of suffering, but the presence of God.
's sickness is slowly invading her lungspace. Immune system FTW.
is going to dip all her food in Tabasco just to be able to taste food again.

*November 13*
Paige...
is done
is sick. And not the good kind.
can apparently only sleep for four hours at a time. Kinda like a baby.

*November 14*
Paige...
is staunchly in favor of cocoa puffs.
is nothin' like a day full of lounging in bed and watching Game Show Network to cure a cold.
is sick and doesn't nkow what she's saying.
is trying to lose herself in creativity.

*November 15*
Paige...
is a bird doesn't sing because it has an answer. It sings because it has a song.
is watching SNL and is hopeful for tomorrow.

*November 16*
Paige...
can't stay asleep to save her life.
is oh. em. gee. el. oh. el. jay. tee. ess. en. el.
mmmm breakfast burritio +church= good start to a Sunday :)
is yeah...dance biscuits.

*November 17*
Paige...
just got kicked out of WalMart. Again.
is oh praise the one who paid our debt and raised this life up from the dead.
is staunchly in favor of cocoa puffs.
is watching Return of the King. And, yes, I will take those 75 nerd points you just awarded me.
is if you liked it then you should have kept a ring on it.

*November 18*
Paige...
is buying a new guitar today!!!!!!
is Bears. Beets. Battlestar Gallactica.
bought an amazing new Breedlove guitar today...amazing.

*November 19*
Paige...
just recorded her new song with her new guitar... new new new.
is singing Christmas carols with eighty-year-old women. Happy Holidays.
is SWELL SEASON DVD in the ginormous media room!!!
is you have suffered enough at war with yourself, its time that you won.

*November 20*
Paige...
is thinking.
is still awake. Still.
thinks sleep may never come! :(

*November 21*
Paige...
is off orientation! I'm a real nurse :).

*November 22*
Paige...
is t-minus 32 hours to Twilight viewing. If there were a word to explain the degree of hotness that Mr. Pattinson possesses, it would be scrumtrilescent.

matt nathanson

2008-10-26T00:25:00.000-07:00

rocked my face off at the house of blues on friday night. I stood in one place for about 6 hours straight through. For those of you who know me well, you know that this was not an altogether easy task, but it was totally worth it. Think I may have gotten some hardcore eye contact at one point. The first opening act was Jamie Harris, she was AWESOME. Great vocals, fantastic lyrics. http://www.myspace.com/jaimeeharrismusic check it out. Next was Jesse Baylin, she was...mediocre at best. Then...Matty, oh matty. He was fantastic, hilarious, and everything I thought he was gonna be. However, there was an ever present elbow in my rib from a crowd monger that decided to have WAY too many people sneak up front with them. Oh well. I didn't let it ruin my night. And afterwards, we got to meet Matt, and he totally wore my pashmena. I almost left it on him, he made it look so much better. The night closed with a trip to IHOP and an episode of the office. It was pretty much the perfect day.

i leave you with some face-rocking matty nay lyrics:

You lead me, fit around my tongue
It's so easy, to forget that I'm lost
Spent all of my life, waiting for answers
To lift me, to numb me, to define it all

Sunshine, I'm beginning to like this

'Cause all I wanna be is the minute that you hold me in
When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for
Time slips to nothin' and I'm better than I've ever been
i'm suspended

You're breathing, filling up my lungs
I can almost believe that I'm almost enough
Spent all of my life empty of anthems
Bracing for something that never did come

Sunshine, I'm beginning to like this
Sunshine, I'm beginning to like it

'Cause all I wanna be is the minute that you hold me in
When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for
Time slips to nothin' and I'm better than I've ever been
i'm suspended

It's not enough to stay surrounded
It's not enough to stay awake,
Torn, and braced, cornered
And not feel alive

it's official

2008-10-22T09:15:00.001-07:00

I have got to be the worst blogger in the history of the world.

There are so many things that have happened in the last month and a half. SO many things that I can't even think about writing them all. I am on a journey of sorts...to figure out exactly what it is that God is trying to tell me. Over the entire summer it seemed like he was YELLING in my ear...everything was so clear; the kind of people I should surround myself with, the kind of things I should be doing, how to best fashion my life to his will. Lately, however, I have been straining to hear him like my grandma strains to hear her wheel of fortune. The problem is : I think its me. Not God. My grandma's TV is plenty loud, its volume never changed, but her hearing has over the years. Maybe its the same with me: God's voice is just as loud as it was, but for some reason I'm in need of a hearing aid. The best hearing aid I can come up with is staying in the scripture. In fact, it might be the ONLY hearing aid I can think of.

OK so...enough of that stuff. Here's an update in list form:
1. Got a tattoo
2. Finally getting to take care of the really sick babies at work
3. Started watching the office, and it has changed my life
4. Searching for a place to worship that can quench my spiritual thirst.
5. Trying to shake off them haters
6. Ridiculous amount of time spent online talking to a certain someone...that happens to be 30 hours away
7. Quite a few good movies at Movie Tavern with Heather
8. Me and my DVR are very close friends ever since I've started working nights.
9. Lots of family time
10. A change in political views

That's the long and short of it. If you have any questions about ANY of it, feel free to ask :)

<3

Paige

no more sappy posts

2008-09-08T11:30:00.000-07:00

Every year on September 8, I write a super sappy and depressing blog about how much I miss my dad. Sometimes I copy song lyrics that remind me of him. Sometimes I write a hypothetical letter to him. This year, as it has been six years since I lost my best friend and father, I think I'll pass up all of that and just say,

miss you dad.

my apologies

2008-09-02T04:22:00.001-07:00

for dropping off the face of the earth.

but GUESS WHAT!!!!

i made my first vlog. hope you guys will go check it out. i think its pretty decent for an imovie illiterate.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NMqmdAumITQ

have fun!

Vacay

2008-08-04T01:45:00.001-07:00

Well... First night on vacay and my time clock is still screwed up!
It's 3 am, and I am WIDE awake...darn you night shift!

We left Bedford about 2ish and made our way north on 35. 35, btw, is
apparently a homeless shelter for all the abandoned dairy queens from
the metroplex and greater DFW area. I swear I saw 27 of them in our 1
hour trek. We also saw some pretty interesting billboard
advertisements on the way down, such as "frank buck zoo" ,which looked
like to me a cheap rip off of arbuckle wilderness. Anybody ever been
to that place? Ya know where the slimy giraffe tongue grazes your face
in a hasty attempt to get some feed you bought for a quarter from the
drive through feed store?

Nobody? Ok...

But, I digress...
Once we arrived in the grand city of Gainesville, Texas I was
pleasantly surprised at the size and grandeur of our hotel
accompdations. Mom and I each have our own queen size bed, which is
adorned with down comforter and four fluffy down pillows. So glad I'm
not allergic to ducks. That's where they get that stuff from, right?
Our TV in our room is a HUGE flat screen HDTV which we probably won't
watch since vacay isn't about reality TV. It's still a nice amenity,
though...

As soon as we arrived to our hotel, we literally dropped our bags and
went running for the casino. Winstar casino has the appearance on the
outside of some kind of World War II hatch, but once you feel like you
are in the heart of vegas. Although...I saw a unnatural number of
amputees there, so I am NOT ruling out that world war II theory quite
yet. In the span of an hour, Mom had doubled her money for the day,
and I had lost mine....sounds about right :)

By the time Mom finally decided to stop playing, we were starving, so
we headed back to TEXAS to eat. I, of course assisted with restaurant
selection with my google maps app on my iPhone only to drive right
past what looked like the BEST Mexican restaurant indigenous to
Gainesville.

We were, undoubtedly, the sole representatives of the Caucasian race
in the entire restaurant, but that's how we knew it was going to be
good. My quesadilla was apprroximately the size of Michael Jordan's
foot, and Mom's food had to be put on two plates. I will probably
seriously consider making the drive again JUST to eat there... It was
wonderful.

After dinner, at the risk of getting cramps, I hopped in the hotel hot
tub, which could have fit a football team in it. It was so relaxing
that I got back to the room and barely made it past the 8 o'clock
"Celebrity Password" and konked out.

All this to say...that's probably why I am up at 3 am...

Wonderful vacation so far!!! I will keep you guys updated!
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We grew up in the same town, but not in the same world

2008-07-30T00:52:00.001-07:00

We grew up in the same town, but not in the same world
I was kidding myself to think that I could have been that girl

CHORUS
You keep me at arm's length
I'm reaching with all my strength
But in the end I'll be laying in my own arms
Not knowing where you are
And trying to forget
That you haven't made your mind up yet

You played me a song you thought I should hear
How could I have known it was meant for her ears

CHORUS

You're illegible
I'm invisible
It's forbiddable
But uncontainable

CHORUS

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this is why everyone loves my one eyed dog

2008-07-28T09:09:00.001-07:00

because she always looks like she's up to something :)

one sentence blog

2008-07-24T00:15:00.001-07:00

my friends are amazing.

for braeden

2008-07-18T03:37:00.000-07:00

that one is so great, i don't even need to make another one..

for arlen

2008-07-18T03:29:00.001-07:00

for aaron

2008-07-18T03:25:00.000-07:00

for heather

2008-07-18T03:23:00.001-07:00

for anthony

2008-07-18T03:13:00.000-07:00

this is what happens when i only have one baby to take care of on a 12 hour shift...

enjoy!

don't mock me

2008-07-16T10:32:00.000-07:00

The apple corporation will NOT have the last word in this matter!

So...I didn't get to purchase an iphone on release day, because I wasn't the primary account holder. Ridiculous. Anyway....they didn't foil my plan to be an apple customer. When I decided that I wanted an iphone, I also decided that eventually, I would also like to purchase a mac computer. I thought I would have to save for weeks to be able to...

Fortunately...this girl in my internship just so happened to be SELLING hers, and for an unbelieveable price....so guess what! I am now a proud owner of ONE of TWO desired mac products. Eventually I will get shipped my iphone...hopefully sooner rather than later.

In other news...I have realized that I need to learn to CALM DOWN. for so long I have wanted to control every aspect of my life. This May, when God took my control of EVERYTHING away, is when he hopped in the driver's seat. I never thought that I would enjoy being in the passenger seat in my life. I always wanted to know what the big picture was, and I guess I wanted to help God paint it. Now that I have relinquished my control in my life, he has been faithful to show me little specs of the big picture every day.

The problem with seeing the big picture is...sometimes you don't know how to get there. So my next prayer will be for patience. Although I know some of the things that are in store for my life, I continue to want to "help God along" by pushing certain things into existence. I know he will, if its his will. That's where I need to calm down.

I am truly happy with where my life is going. Probably because its finally moving in the right direction.

Almost there

2008-07-11T09:09:00.001-07:00

line

2008-07-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

In line for new iPHONE been here since 6

An actual headline

2008-07-03T09:47:00.000-07:00

In the glen rose,tx local newspaper.
I think it speaks for itself.

vacation

2008-07-02T11:22:00.001-07:00

mini-vacation, local style. going to glen rose for the night and hanging with the fam. possibly some tanning will be involved. and probably some really big laughs. i love my family more than even i can understand.

ok, so maybe i'm a full convert

2008-07-02T00:38:00.000-07:00

my excellent friend, heather b, has baptized me in the waters of john mayer, and i am SOOOOOOOO grateful!!!!!!!!!!! i think she's converted me to a real fan. its been years since i had an artist that i could really relate to, and its an amazing feeling to have that back. i think this is the beginning of what could be a beautiful relationship between me and john mayer.:)

and...we went to bridge the gap tonight, which was awesome, and frustrating at the same time. but mostly beneficial to my spiritual walk. we took a test, somewhat like one you would see in christian cosmo, about spiritual gifts. I found out that my top three are:
1. discernment
2. mercy
3. prophecy

one of these frightens me. i'll give you three guesses, but i think you'll only need one. i think that God has for sure shown me things that he hasn't shown others about the direction in which they are going. sometimes i even feel like i can see the end product of people's bad and good decisions. i see mine too, but those are harder to swallow. on many of the huge decisions i make in my life, i can see what the end outcome is going to look like depending on which path i take, and a lot of times...the one i wanted to take, is not the one God had planned for me.

Recently there have been things popping up all around me that suggest to me that I am doing exactly what God has wanted me to do for so long. Like little pats on the back from the Almighty. He has blessed me recently with some really great friends, the job of my dreams, and a peace of mind about my life. and things keep coming up in church, at bridge the gap, and even at STAMPING parties that have to do with submitting to God's plans, even if its in a really uncomfortable place for you.

oh and by the way, there's no way i would have made it through this eye-opening beginning to a summer without heather b. you have truly been a consistent presence in my life when NOTHING was consistent...and i believe that there is a reason for that.

Guess what

2008-06-29T11:53:00.000-07:00

I'm an RN! That stands for real nurse!!

It's over

2008-06-27T12:38:00.001-07:00

Took my test today. It only took me an hour, and i only had 75 questions...so that could be a really good thing or a really bad thing. We shall see come sunday mornin', i reckon. Not sure why i just went into a conway twitty accent... I feel pretty good about it, just unsure, i guess... In other news, i had to do about a billion things today, one of which was to get a new tire. And i ended up getting it fo free. Now i know what you're all thinking..."darn that paige, she always gets stuff free on simply good looks alone." but, nay, my friends ...twas only a warranty! I also bought a new bible. Its in kjv, which is why i just used the word "twas". I will be going to a movie tonight with some friends, which should be pretty enjoyable...although, we still haven't figured out which one. Just like a group of college age kids to be fickle about plans. :) i'll sign off by thanking all of you who have prayed for me about my HUGE test. I hope they did some good!

Slight change of plans

2008-06-26T11:20:00.001-07:00

Thank you everyone for praying for me taking my test today, but unfortunately....i'm going to have to test tomorrow at 8 instead... Its a long story that was REALLY scary for a second, but God is good and provided for me ONCE again! :) so you're prayers i'm sure will carry over for tomorrow!

time to face you...

2008-06-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

i know i said i wasn't going to do this, but in light of new information....i take it back.
it's a good thing it only took me 10 minutes to write this because you don't deserve a second over.

time to face you.

I knew you always lied to make yourself look better

Didn't know how bad it got when you got bitter

Just because you couldn't be happy with anyone but your mommy

Does NOT mean you can go slinging accusations like a tommy

Gun.

You've said some pretty rancid things, but this beats them all by far

You had to stretch so hard on this one, hope you had a ballet bar

There's an aching in my soul and a vein popping on my neck

If I weren't a christian woman, I'd tell you to go to heck

And…

When you look yourself in the mirror

Hope you see things a bit clearer

By slandering my name

And making me the one to blame

Don't you feel like a big boy now

When you look yourself in the mirror

You should feel a little superior

Cause at least you're not the man on the other side

That has to look at your sorry face.

Yeah, that might be a little hard to taste

But I'm so glad I met you

Cause if I didn't I couldn't be ecstatic that I'm rid of you.

You had a sickness that for so long you disguised

I think at some point you actually started to believe your own lies

And.

When you look yourself in the mirror

Do you wish that you could just shift gears

Into a cliff or a wall or something to get you

back to the reality of it all

When you look yourself in the mirror

Hope you see things a little bit clearer

The man that you've become

The heinous things that you have done

The hours that you've spent

Trying to feel yourself repent

The hurt that you have caused

You should be applaused for…

Looking past it for so long

You've looked past it too long.

Time to face you.

so sorry

2008-06-22T18:37:00.000-07:00

to all (three) of my faithful blog readers...

that i haven't updated lately, buuuut i've been incredibly busy with REALLY exciting things.

like:
1. starting my new job!
2. studying for nclex
3. playing open mic night
4. making a list of things i want to do with my first paycheck
5. GOING OUT OF MY MIND

haha...

i promise i will start blogging more regularly if for nothing else than to keep my sanity.

recorded

2008-06-07T21:10:00.001-07:00

some new copies of some old songs
some new copies of some new songs

so check it out....

click it, hear it, love it...hopefully

oh...and tell your friends.:)

dancing with the lost stars....good tv show idea.

2008-06-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

watched so you think you can dance tonight. if any of you are NOT currently obsessed with this show, don't worry. the good part is just starting, so you STILL HAVE TIME!!! wed and thurs at 7. be there or be squaredance. hahaaaaa..its...funny cause....oh nevermind.

so i'm plugging along on the mission of watching four seasons of lost in one month. believe me...i WILL do it! and heather is DEFINITELY helping me. i was hooked from the first episode, so i'm pretty sure it should be easy.

tomorrow is mom's bday, so anyone who knows her...be sure and tell her! i am going to be getting up and cooking her breakfast, cause i am just THAT good of a daughter.

sleep well all.

i finally did it

2008-06-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

that's right people...i finally captured a photograph of my halo.
you may all get this image on a candle at the dollar store near you.

studying is sooooo much better than goofing off

2008-06-03T12:38:00.000-07:00

except its not...
but my TEST will officially be on June 26th at 8:00 AM.
So if you guys want to wake up early that day and pray your butts off, I would reaaaaaaaaaally appreciate it!

But in the mean time. I will be studying for said test. And fretting my life away about it!!!! i'm sure it will be fine, but it doesn't stop me from being nervous about it. eeeeeek. i have to stop talking about it , i'm getting nauseous.

anywho...here's the line up for tonight

eat
sex and the city movie
the bridge/good times with good friends
laundry
sleep.

and somewhere sprinkled in there...studying. did i mention yet that i need to study? ok.

tonight was

2008-06-02T22:32:00.000-07:00

tonight was magnificent!!!! for the following reasons:

1.there was lipstick on heather's coffee cup at IHOP.
2.arlen figured out the root of his relationship problems: the cell phone belt clip.
3.anthony told stories that we've heard since high school.
4. i decided that carrot muffins are NOT for me. there are little pieces of what look like orange worms in them. not a fan.

by the way, did i mention that tonight was magnificent?

i wrote a new song

2008-05-27T21:21:00.001-07:00

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=131789379

click it.
love it.
comment it.

goodbye

2008-05-24T07:09:00.001-07:00

Say goodbye to wichita falls forever...

Wichita falls

2008-05-23T06:53:00.000-07:00

On the way to wichita falls!!

lyrics

2008-05-20T12:50:00.000-07:00

a wonderful nickel creek song that displays EXACTLY how i feel right now:

Somebody more like you

I didn't hear you say you're sorry
The fault must be mine
I wish you all the best of luck
At finding somebody more like you

You said you'd love me always, truly
I must have changed
Cause you don't need me like you used to
I hope you find somebody more like you

I hope you finally find someone
Someone that you trust
And give her everything
I hope you meet someone your height
So you can see eye-to-eye
With someone as small as you

You came out of nowhere, made me smile
Then tore me in two
Saying, "We're very different people"
So dear, I hope you find somebody more like you

I hope you find somebody more like you

booyah.........that feels better.

Anthony's drink

2008-05-19T18:32:00.001-07:00

It's called a NO FUN latte....it gave me a chuckle:)

My fortune

2008-05-17T12:22:00.000-07:00

Pretty appropriate:)

Pei wei

2008-05-17T11:51:00.000-07:00

This place is so yummy...
At lunch with my mommy...
I'll clean my plate
And fill my tummy

today

2008-05-15T21:35:00.001-07:00

In summary, today was a good day. Tonight, however was kind of a bummer...i was bored like crazy and it seemed like EVERYONE ELSE was terribly busy, which kind of made me feel like a loser. I know it will be alot more hectic for me once my job starts...i'm counting the days. I am definitely painting tomorrow so if anybody wants to help, even if it's just sitting in my room to talk to me while i paint, i'd surely appreciate it. Anyway,

Prescott out

My dog

2008-05-15T15:41:00.000-07:00

Lucy thought she would make herself comfortable in my closet... She climbed in where i had one of my old pillows...she is too cute

Mom's pinning

2008-05-15T11:55:00.000-07:00

This is a picture of my mom at her nursing pinning...i had mine last friday, and i gotta tell ya, i am so excited to carry on the legacy!

I found..

2008-05-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

Found this card from dad in my old room at home. Just when i thought he was gone, he still sends me encouragement when i need him the most.
The card is (I assume) from when I went on choir tour one year. It reads:
Hope you are having a good time. We miss you and love you. Try to have a stress free trip. Keep your head in the game and the stress will be minimal. In other words, Do what you know and know what you do!Have a good trip and enjoy the music. - Dad
This made my week :)

My new bed

2008-05-14T09:28:00.000-07:00

I slept better last night than i have in years. Was it because of the new comforter or the comfort i received yesterday by being with the people that fill my heart with gladness?

lunch

2008-05-13T11:17:00.000-07:00

With donovan... It's just like i never lefts

My dog

2008-05-13T08:28:00.001-07:00

Sleeps under the covers like a human...

what does your blog title mean?

2008-05-13T08:00:00.000-07:00

Well my friends, it is a quote from Clara Barton, the nurse that began the American Red Cross. In laymen's terms, it means...whatever has "usually been done" or is the "societal norm" , I'm gonna do the exact opposite. I think it is a good motto for my life right now:

1. I don't have to react to a break-up the way everyone thinks that I should.
2. I'm moving back home with my mom, it doesn't have to be a bad thing, in fact its the best thing that has happened to me in a long time.
3. In my nursing practice, I will pledge to not just do the minimum ... and to have evidence for everything I do.

I firmly believe that God has great things coming my way, and I can NOT WAIT to find them!