Wednesday, May 13, 2009

fifty-sixth time is a charm?

I know I have resolved and resolved to keep this silly thing updated, but it hasn't happened yet. Once again, I am resolving to make this work. Tonight is the LOST finale and I could NOT be more excited. I have faithfully stayed away from all spoilers all season. I can't believe it is finally here.

Also...Work is going really well. I feel like I am gaining knowledge every shift. Sometimes I have to seek it out for myself, but that's what its all about, right? I've also gained some fantastic friendships up at work. I wouldn't trade those for the world.

As the year anniversary comes up of "the week my world turned upside down," as it has come to be known (AKA dog loses eye, called the wedding off, graduated, moved back home ALL IN SEVEN DAYS), I think back on where I was a year ago, and how far I have come. I am so thankful to God for the people he has put in my life EXACTLY when I needed them. AND the people that he removed from my life, or at least my view, when I needed that. I have seen every encounter since that week as purposeful and God-breathed. It has been amazing to see him work in powerful ways.

PLEASE keep me accountable to blogging. If you read, then say to me..."Hey Paige, you haven't blogged since the O.J. trial...maybe its time you updated?"

I would really appreciate it. :)

Oh yeah...and this guy is coming back this week. It should get interesting!!!

Posted by Nurse Paige 0 comments at 10:15 AM

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

two in a row!

Woooow... you should all be impressed.

I have discovered that when my life is a mess, my house is as well. I never really realized the correlation between the two until I got into college. When I was at my lowest was when my laundry pile was at its highest. These past few weeks have been pretty rough, and I'm really not even sure why. Gradually, my room kept getting more and more untidy, and my life followed suit...or vice versa. Last night I went on a cleaning spree that lead to a bit of catharsis. Every piece of trash I picked up was like a part of my life that I was now in control of. I cleaned for close to six hours, and finally, my house is (for the most part) back in order...and for some reason, I'm at peace with the fact that my life is as well. When I finally fell asleep at about 4:30, I had a terrible dream...there were people coming through and TRASHING my house. Now...had I not already known the correlation between my life and my tidyness, I probably would have just said, "Wow, that was a wierd dream." I think, however, that it was a little symbolic of how my life takes this turn sometimes. Perhaps I allow people or things into my "house" that I know are going to TRASH it. When I kick those people/things out, I have time to get things back in order. I took that dream as a warning...when your house is its cleanest, is when Satan and temptation will try their hardest to TRASH it. So...here's to clean rooms and cleaner consciences.

**Reader's note: please ignore the multiple comma splices and superfluous use of ellipsis in the above post. You get my point, right?**

Posted by Nurse Paige 0 comments at 11:10 PM

Monday, January 26, 2009

I'll be brief

I'll be brief, because I really don't care to rehash my apology for
not blogging more faithfully. I just want everyone (all three of you?)
to know that I am resolving, allbeit a little late for New Year's, to
be pacified by the fact that God is enough. Little snippets of my past
have been rearing their ugly head and showing me how far I had come.
Last night I perused my old xanga blog and I was pretty mortified by
some of the things I said and the toxicity of the relationships I was
in...oh yeah...and the sheer NUMBER of them. Anyway...moral of the
story is I have come WAY too far to fall back into what I had been.
I'll be updating you on how this process is coming ;)
Sent from my iPhone

Posted by Nurse Paige 0 comments at 9:02 AM

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

the holidays

are upon us. in every way possible. its so unreal. and every year we say "man, i can't believe it is ALREADY christmas." to me...its just a signifier of how quickly time has been flying. ever since i graduated in may i feel kinda fast-forward-y. i know i have expressed this numerous times, in a billion different ways. :). i can not tell any of you how thankful i am for the new friends i am making every day and for the friendships i have maintained. all my blogs sound dangerously similar lately... i don't know if thats because i am in a rut or because i am just settled.

my faith has been rocked a bit lately. not my faith in Christ, but my faith in Christians. i feel an overwhelming detachment to the Christian church and how they have bastardized the gospel to their own fancies. There are NUMEROUS issues that continue to come up that make me ashamed to align myself with the majority of the religious right. Being a Christ follower, it has been hard for me to find a group of Christians that lack the pious, overbearing nature that is prevalent in today's mainstream evangelical churches. I feel strongly that I have now found that group. Now...all that is NOT AT ALL to say that my past church groups have not given me exactly what I needed in the moment that I needed it, spiritually speaking...so i better not get any hate comments from this :) . I just feel very strongly that God has hand plucked me and thrown me full force into Northwood church as the place that I belong. I desperately challenge anyone who is a Christ follower that reads this to never stop learning, never stop questioning, and never stop sharing. Also, don't allow yourself to fall into complacency that is SO easy for us, as Christians, to do.

Posted by Nurse Paige 0 comments at 11:45 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008

stupid lamb.

Finally made it to go see Twilight last night. It was amazing, as expected. I'm glad that I didn't read the book before it came out, because now when i read the book, it will be like icing on the "movie" cake. Oh...and by the way...I'm going with Heather to see it again.

I am in a stage of musical enlightenment, of sorts, in which I am opening my ears to all kinds of new stuff. If you guys have anything that is musically off the wall...try me out :)

Things seem to have been changing a lot lately. It seems to be for the better, but its a pretty whirlwind way to live. i would love to just stand still for a bit...and maybe its coming soon. Until then, i guess i'll just enjoy the windblown hair and lack of sleep.

Since I have been faced with some of the same questions ALOT lately here are some things you should know, so you don't ask me:
1. yes, i'm over it. I've BEEN over it.
2. No, I don't wish it had ended differently. It ended right when it needed to, and how it needed to.
3. Yes, I have moved churches...and while I miss the people at my old church home TERRIBLY, I am LOVING my new one.
4. I AM going back to school . and YES I did just get out. I don't think a furthering of my education is anything to be scoffed at.
5. Yes, I do want to get married and have kids...and believe me, I am not PURPOSEFULLY putting that off.

I know that last portion of the blog was a little snippy :) So I'll end on a good note.

I have never been so thankful for all the people in my life. Even though my life has been a crazy tornado, my friends and family have been in the storm with me. Thanks you guys :)

Posted by Nurse Paige 1 comments at 7:24 PM

Saturday, November 22, 2008

ok, i'm an unfaithful blogger...so kill me.

I have decided to write this blog with only my facebook statuses from the past month, so you'll know what I've been doing. It just seemed easier than trying to explain it. :)

*October 26*
Paige...
doesn't want to be your secret
may have accidentally enjoyed high school musical 3
is a hopeless case, in a good way:)
is getting punkin pancakes in the AY EM

*October 27*
Paige...
is trying so hard to keep her cool
is listed as in a relationship and it's complicated

*October 28*
Paige...
can't sleep but is thankful for honest friends and brake lights.
is up before 5 pm. Everyone should be very proud. Ah, night shift
has one more month until she's off her internship
is being molded into a patient, godfearing, open-minded woman...slowly but surely

*October 29*
Paige...
is somehow everythings gonna fall right into place. If we only had a way to make it all fall faster every day.
is going shopping to mourn her last day of vacation.

*October 30*
Paige...
is God's timing is flawless, his will secure, his grace unending, and his love is pure.
is an Obama supporter, is a God-fearing Christian, and don't you DARE tell me I can't be both

*October 31*
Paige...
voted, and yes it DID count.

*November 2*
Paige...
is if yo mama gave it to you baby girl let it show. thank you, huey, for your lyrical genius and subtlety
is say what you need to say

*November 3*
hopes to sit away in a secret place, the shadow of your wings. I think of you, and my heart breaks open.
is stoked.
just took a practice GRE. yeesh.

*November 4*
Paige...
is anxiously awaiting with bated breath, with hope for our country...but scared to death.
is not only donating her status, but also her American right to vote, to Barack Obama.
is excited that so many people turned out to vote. I am thankful to all of you who shared your opinions, and specifically that YOU HAVE ONE!!! USA!!!
will sleep soundly tonight, not because of who was elected President, but because God's will is supreme, and our country and its fate are in his almighty hands.

*November 5*
Paige...
is asking everyone to visit http://www.marchofdimes.com/padpetition/index.aspx?a=1&z=1&c=1&l=en and sign the petition for preemies.
going to "young at heart" choir. Gotta love those purpled-hair sopranos. I love old people :)
if you have something to say...say it to me now.
is I don't know you, but I want you all the more for that.

*November 6*
Paige...
is oh. em. gee. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Jxs6RwbVe0
wishes she had a twin that she could send into work for her tonight...but not an evil one.
is JAMMING OUT to some swell season.

*November 7*
Paige...
is down for the count, man.

*November 8*
Paige...
is stuffing her face with a potato bagel, and proceeding into a carb-induced slumber. Goodnight ;).
is so over it.

*November 9*
Paige...
is going to church. So stoked.
is putting on her comfiest sleep shirt and slipping into a deep slumber. If you're trying to get a hold of me, give up now. :)
is haikus are easy | but sometimes they don't make sense | refrigerator

*November 10*
Paige...
just slept for 19 hours to recover from 3 days of working.
fixed her running toilet...ALL by herself. What a woman.


*November 11*
Paige...
is hungry, but Mom's touch lamps turn on when I use the microwave. So...starve it is.
is snotty-nosed. Just thought you should know.
won't hesitate no more, no more. It can not wait...

*November 12*
Paige...
is up way too early for having gone to bed so late.
Joy is not the absence of suffering, but the presence of God.
's sickness is slowly invading her lungspace. Immune system FTW.
is going to dip all her food in Tabasco just to be able to taste food again.

*November 13*
Paige...
is done
is sick. And not the good kind.
can apparently only sleep for four hours at a time. Kinda like a baby.

*November 14*
Paige...
is staunchly in favor of cocoa puffs.
is nothin' like a day full of lounging in bed and watching Game Show Network to cure a cold.
is sick and doesn't nkow what she's saying.
is trying to lose herself in creativity.

*November 15*
Paige...
is a bird doesn't sing because it has an answer. It sings because it has a song.
is watching SNL and is hopeful for tomorrow.

*November 16*
Paige...
can't stay asleep to save her life.
is oh. em. gee. el. oh. el. jay. tee. ess. en. el.
mmmm breakfast burritio +church= good start to a Sunday :)
is yeah...dance biscuits.

*November 17*
Paige...
just got kicked out of WalMart. Again.
is oh praise the one who paid our debt and raised this life up from the dead.
is staunchly in favor of cocoa puffs.
is watching Return of the King. And, yes, I will take those 75 nerd points you just awarded me.
is if you liked it then you should have kept a ring on it.

*November 18*
Paige...
is buying a new guitar today!!!!!!
is Bears. Beets. Battlestar Gallactica.
bought an amazing new Breedlove guitar today...amazing.

*November 19*
Paige...
just recorded her new song with her new guitar... new new new.
is singing Christmas carols with eighty-year-old women. Happy Holidays.
is SWELL SEASON DVD in the ginormous media room!!!
is you have suffered enough at war with yourself, its time that you won.

*November 20*
Paige...
is thinking.
is still awake. Still.
thinks sleep may never come! :(

*November 21*
Paige...
is off orientation! I'm a real nurse :).

*November 22*
Paige...
is t-minus 32 hours to Twilight viewing. If there were a word to explain the degree of hotness that Mr. Pattinson possesses, it would be scrumtrilescent.

Posted by Nurse Paige 1 comments at 11:30 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2008

matt nathanson

rocked my face off at the house of blues on friday night. I stood in one place for about 6 hours straight through. For those of you who know me well, you know that this was not an altogether easy task, but it was totally worth it. Think I may have gotten some hardcore eye contact at one point. The first opening act was Jamie Harris, she was AWESOME. Great vocals, fantastic lyrics. http://www.myspace.com/jaimeeharrismusic check it out. Next was Jesse Baylin, she was...mediocre at best. Then...Matty, oh matty. He was fantastic, hilarious, and everything I thought he was gonna be. However, there was an ever present elbow in my rib from a crowd monger that decided to have WAY too many people sneak up front with them. Oh well. I didn't let it ruin my night. And afterwards, we got to meet Matt, and he totally wore my pashmena. I almost left it on him, he made it look so much better. The night closed with a trip to IHOP and an episode of the office. It was pretty much the perfect day.

i leave you with some face-rocking matty nay lyrics:

You lead me, fit around my tongue
It's so easy, to forget that I'm lost
Spent all of my life, waiting for answers
To lift me, to numb me, to define it all

Sunshine, I'm beginning to like this

'Cause all I wanna be is the minute that you hold me in
When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for
Time slips to nothin' and I'm better than I've ever been
i'm suspended

You're breathing, filling up my lungs
I can almost believe that I'm almost enough
Spent all of my life empty of anthems
Bracing for something that never did come

Sunshine, I'm beginning to like this
Sunshine, I'm beginning to like it

'Cause all I wanna be is the minute that you hold me in
When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for
Time slips to nothin' and I'm better than I've ever been
i'm suspended

It's not enough to stay surrounded
It's not enough to stay awake,
Torn, and braced, cornered
And not feel alive

Posted by Nurse Paige 1 comments at 12:25 AM